Van’s Path to Awakening – Spiritual Autobiography
Timestamps:
00:00:00 – Deborah and Van greeting
00:03:50 – Intro and overview
00:10:00 – Second birth/Whole Being Realization
00:12:00 – Grace on the path
00:15:00 – Psychedelic drugs as an opening factor
00:22:00 – Looking to get “high” without psychoactive drugs
00:30:00 – Spiritual banquet – discovering dharmic paths & holy people
00:35:00 – Introduction to Adi Da’s teachings
00:42:00 – Van’s “Rot” period
Timestamps:
00:01:00 – Family trauma issues
00:02:00 – Therapy
00:12:00 – Hearing about Saniel Bonder’s awakening from a friend
00:13:00 – First sitting with Saniel and awakening story
00:16:00 – Witnessing thoughts – Embodied Feeling Witness Consciousness
00:17:00 – Readiness from being in “the Rot”
00:19:00 – Blaze of Consciousness and radiant Divine Love of initial Whole Being Realization
00:20:30 – Experiencing centerless, uncaused love
00:21:00 – Whole Being Realization
00:22:00 – Fused into the world and seamless unity experience
00:25:00 – Post-awakened life and evolution into teaching
00:27:00 – Discovering further maturation of Whole Being Realization
00:29:00 – The value of exploring, experimenting, and improvising in teaching
00:30:00 – Apprenticing with Saniel
00:34:00 – Saniel advises Van to start teaching
00:35:00 – Van’s first sitting as a teacher
00:38:00 – The importance of both structure and improvisation in teaching
Timestamps:
00:01:00 – Uniqueness of each person’s awakening & discovering gradual awakening, aka “Oozing in”
00:02:00 – Adapting the teachings for each person’s needs
00:04:00 – Van’s experience with Obsessive Compulsive Disorder
00:06:00 – Whole Being Realization is not a fixed state – bodily experience of it fluctuates
00:09:30 – Stable access to the Core Paradox
00:10:30 – Deepening in unity
00:11:30 – Recognition that there is only singular Radiant Divine Being
00:13:00 – The Amrita Factor – the experience of radiant Love-bliss and “divine intoxication”
00:15:00 – The shift in identity from human to divine
00:17:00 – Everything and everyone is a divine manifestation
00:18:30 – Meeting David Spero
00:19:00 – Love-bliss intensification and spiritual deepening with David Spero 00:21:00 – Devotion and the Divine Feminine
00:23:00 – Bliss in Waking Down
00:25:00 – Three aspects of Divine Whole Being – Consciousness, Shakti, & Love-bliss
00:26:00 – Expanding Trillium’s core dharma/teachings
00:31:00 – Integrating Love-bliss into Trillium & the Divine Feminine
00:39:00 – Realization of all-inclusive divinity in later stages of awakening (Note: Van has coined the term “ultra-singularity” as a key element of the later stages, after this interview.)