Van’s Path to Awakening – Spiritual Autobiography

Timestamps:
00:00:00​ – Deborah and Van greeting
00:03:50​ – Intro and overview
00:10:00​ – Second birth/Whole Being Realization
00:12:00​ – Grace on the path
00:15:00​ – Psychedelic drugs as an opening factor
00:22:00​ – Looking to get “high” without psychoactive drugs
00:30:00​ – Spiritual banquet – discovering dharmic paths & holy people
00:35:00​ – Introduction to Adi Da’s teachings
00:42:00​ – Van’s “Rot” period

Timestamps:
00:01:00​ – Family trauma issues
00:02:00​ – Therapy
00:12:00​ – Hearing about Saniel Bonder’s awakening from a friend
00:13:00​ – First sitting with Saniel and awakening story
00:16:00​ – Witnessing thoughts – Embodied Feeling Witness Consciousness
00:17:00​ – Readiness from being in “the Rot”
00:19:00​ – Blaze of Consciousness and radiant Divine Love of initial Whole Being Realization
00:20:30​ – Experiencing centerless, uncaused love
00:21:00​ – Whole Being Realization
00:22:00​ – Fused into the world and seamless unity experience
00:25:00​ – Post-awakened life and evolution into teaching
00:27:00​ – Discovering further maturation of Whole Being Realization
00:29:00​ – The value of exploring, experimenting, and improvising in teaching
00:30:00​ – Apprenticing with Saniel
00:34:00​ – Saniel advises Van to start teaching
00:35:00​ – Van’s first sitting as a teacher
00:38:00​ – The importance of both structure and improvisation in teaching

Timestamps:
00:01:00​ – Uniqueness of each person’s awakening & discovering gradual awakening, aka “Oozing in”
00:02:00​ – Adapting the teachings for each person’s needs
00:04:00​ – Van’s experience with Obsessive Compulsive Disorder
00:06:00​ – Whole Being Realization is not a fixed state – bodily experience of it fluctuates
00:09:30​ – Stable access to the Core Paradox
00:10:30​ – Deepening in unity
00:11:30​ – Recognition that there is only singular Radiant Divine Being
00:13:00​ – The Amrita Factor – the experience of radiant Love-bliss and “divine intoxication”
00:15:00​ – The shift in identity from human to divine
00:17:00​ – Everything and everyone is a divine manifestation
00:18:30​ – Meeting David Spero
00:19:00​ – Love-bliss intensification and spiritual deepening with David Spero 00:21:00​ – Devotion and the Divine Feminine
00:23:00​ – Bliss in Waking Down
00:25:00​ – Three aspects of Divine Whole Being – Consciousness, Shakti, & Love-bliss
00:26:00​ – Expanding Trillium’s core dharma/teachings
00:31:00​ – Integrating Love-bliss into Trillium & the Divine Feminine
00:39:00​ – Realization of all-inclusive divinity in later stages of awakening (Note: Van has coined the term “ultra-singularity” as a key element of the later stages, after this interview.)

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